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June 16th, 2005
05:02 pm

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Okay so i have been on a great kick latley, I dyed my hair today. Its awsome, I love it. Um I will try to post before and after pics. Um not much else going on just enjoying life really. Sorry this isnt anything exciting but at least its better then me missing sean, who i think will be at the bar tonight to see me lol well not me personally but will see me and my new look. hehe cant wait

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June 6th, 2005
12:49 pm

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Hey ya all, I thought that I would update a little. Things have been going good for me, I have been chillin with Cill and Becky a lot, and then Katie and Kristy now,I see vicky every now and then but our work times are different and what not. Um I went to Have a Nice Day Cafe like 2 weeks ago and I saw bartender Jason. He was really cute looking and came up to talk to me !! I was having a great time that night, some guys from West were there, and talked to them, then out of all the bars and people in the whole world I saw my 8th grade math teacher. Um so lets see what else has been going on,
I went to the Hog on Thursday with Katie,and Kristy and Sean was there, with his new gf and dave. Um so the whole night he was watchin me and what not, his friends were coming over to talk to me and then his brother came over too and went outside with me to look at my new car. Me and the girls were having a great time laughing and talking and having a few beers.Sean was just sitting there not like having fun or anything.
So then it was getting some what late so we all were going, i said good bye to his brother and made plans for next thursday with him. I was driving Kristy home and we were at her house just sitting in my car talking and all, and Sean calls. This is like a good 10-15 mins after we left. He left me a message cuz i didnt want to answer it. He sounded really pissed off and said this"What you cant even say hi ?Whatever bye" Yea now, he saw me there the whole time and was looking at me the whole time, he could of came over ot me to say hello. I mean he was with his new gf and all, and it would of been kinda weird for me too, adn I just didnt want to feel like that.
So then I talked to Brian the other night and asked him why Sean called me, and he didnt even know that he did, so I told him what he all said and told me that was gay,And then we were just talking about Sean and why I didnt want to go over there and understood how I felt. Then we were talking on how sean has changed and what not and he agrees that it hasnt been for the better and dont know what to do about it anymore. He also told me again that I look really good, he told me that on thursday night too. Then Saturdya night I went to Riversplash with Cilla and becky and met up with Katie and Kristy, and we all had a good time until the weather started to get kinda bad, so we went to eat at some resturant and the food was really bad and the service and the people were kinda weird. But cilla's friend butch was really cute and sweet, too bad he is engaged !! Oh well. I think this weekend we are going to Have a nice day cafe again cuz we got free cover on Saturday night so that will be good fun. Um nothing else is really going on, talked to brian again last nigth and shit. Its cool I feel bad for him cuz this girl that he really liked wants to focuz on school now and not him, and he really liked her too. Oh well. I work tonigth and the rest of the week. Tonight at Miller Park, I know Jason works tomorrow night for sure so I am excited about that !! Talk to you all later I guess

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May 20th, 2005
05:49 pm

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Another Sad, Missing Sean entry. Sorry, I just need to get this all out.
okay so i just had to update. Well last night i went to the house of guiness with jennifer from westown. And for those of you who dont know, thats normally where Sean goes, and I went to listen to Hayward Williams finally. He is amazing. I love his Cd too. Anyways, so I was there and one of Sean's Uncles were there, I babysat for his kids. And Sean and I took them to Disney on Ice this past winter too. Anyways so he came up to me gave me a big hug and all, and we talked for awhile till Brian showed up. Then they all sat down to talk and what not, and Brian then came over, gave me a huge hug and talked to me, and finally I heard it straight from his mouth that he doesnt like this new girl that Sean is with.Well I dont know if its offical I am sure it is and I just dont want to admit to it, but whatever. So it was cool, then I ended up buying them all beer and stuff before me and Jennifer took off. I went to say good bye and all, and Brian gave me a hug good bye and to keep in touch and hang out more, I am so glad that I went there last night, oh yea before I asked if Sean was coming but he was already out of town. And I told Brian I was going to Have a Nice Day Cafe tonight and what not, and we talked about drunkin phone calls and he expects to get one from me lol. We will see on that. Then gave his uncle a hug goodbye, and he told me it was great to see me, and glad to see that I am doing well and everything.
I have a feeling Seans family took the breakup just as hard as I did. I mean its not hte first time that I have ran into his family and they ask if I am alright and what not.Its great to know that they really liked or loved me and at least still want to see how I am everything. And I am just glad that Brian and I are good too, and that you know he still wants to keep in touch with me, I was kinda sadden that Sean wasnt out last night, and would of loved to see how he is with this girl,cuz according to one of my friends they dont act like they are together, and when they are at the Hog they sit across from each other and she just stares at him. Weird, I mean at least with him and me you knew that we were together, and what not.
Well anywas so today I was going through some old cds and well found the movies he made for me back when I lived in Fl and it was the first time we were apart. I miss that Sean, the one that was cryin in these and told me that the loved me and missed me, the one where he started to sing to me,Then also gave me his pokemon to sleep with and told me that he would make him smell like him, and how he would sleep with floppy at night. Since thats what I gave him, the only person who has ever had floppy. Floppy is my puppet dog that i have since i was 5 years old. I know I am 22 and what not, and i have slept with him every night since I got him. But When i was in Tampa, I gave him to Sean when he was leaving so he could smell him and think of me. That was the only time I have never slept with him. I mean I guess I really was in love to let Floppy go.Just watchin the movies that he made me, wants to turn back the clock. I mean I dont know. I just miss that Sean, more then anything else. IT was little things like that that made living apart from him easier.
I guess I wish I didnt find the movies,even when I did find them I knew I shouldnt of watched it, but still, I wanted too, i needed too, and I dont know why. I guess there is still always going to be a part of me that wants to be with him. And know really knows whats going to happen and who we are ment to be with down the road, know one really knows God's plan. But I really wish I knew. I wish that I could say this is just a break for now between him and me, to see what else is out there and do things before we find out that yea we are ment to be together.Cuz there is nothing more in this world that I want right now then him. Its not just him that I want, I want the whole deal, I want his family to be my family and my family to be his family too.

Okay sorry for the depressing entry and all, I just needed to get this off my chest. I am really thinking about emailing him too, but I am sure I will just write an email in here for him, and he will never see it, it just helps me a lot more to write things out then to hold them all in.

Current Music: Garth Brooks, She's Everything

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May 15th, 2005
10:33 pm

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Thought this could be fun
movie trivia!
Movies...seen and unseen:


(X) Napoleon Dynamite
(X) Saw
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(X) Anger Management
(X) 50 First Dates
( ) Jason X
(X) Scream
(X) Scream 2
(X) Scream 3
(X) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
(X) American Pie
(X) American Pie 2
(X) American Wedding
(X) Harry Potter
(X) Harry Potter 2
(X) Harry Potter 3
(X) Resident Evil I
( ) Resident Evil 2
(X) The Wedding Singer
(X) Little Black Book
(X) The Village
( ) Donnie Darko
(X) Lilo & Stitch
(X) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
(X) 13 Ghosts
(X) Signs
(X) The Grinch
(X) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (the beginning...)
(X) White Chicks
(X) Butterfly Effect
(X) Thirteen going on 30
(X) I Robot
(X) Dodge ball
( ) Universal Soldier
(X) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(X) Along Came A Spider
(X) Deep impact
(X) KingPin
(X) Never Been Kissed
(X) Meet The Parents
(X) Meet The Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
(X) A Cinderella Story
(X) The Terminal
(X) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(X) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumb & Dumberer
(X) Final Destination
(X) Final Destination 2
(X) Halloween
(X) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
(X) Harold & Kumar (white castle)
(X) Practical Magic
( ) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(X) Hellboy
(X) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
(X) The Whole Nine Yards
(X) The Day After Tomorrow
(X) Child's Play
(X) Bride of Chucky
(X) Ten Things I Hate About You
(X) Just Married
( ) Gothika
(X) A Nightmare on Elm Street
(X) Sixteen Candles
(X) Bad Boys 2
(X) Joy Ride
( ) Seven (SE7EN)
(X) Oceans Eleven
(X) Oceans Twelve
(X) Identity
( ) Lone Star
(X) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
(X) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
(X) Christine
(X) ET
(X) Children of the Corn
(X) My boss' daughter
(X) Maid in Manhattan
(X) Frailty
( ) Best bet
(X) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(X) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
(X) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(X) Ever after
(X) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(X) X-men 1
(X) X-men 2
(X) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
(X) The Others
(X) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
(X) Cruel Intentions
( ) The Hot Chick
(X) Swimfan
(X) Miracle
(X) Old School
(X) Ray
(X) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(X) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(X) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(X) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(X) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
( ) Hitch
( ) Back Door Sluts 9
(X) SouthPark: Bigger, Longer and Uncut
( ) The Fifth Element
(X) Star wars episode I
(X) Star wars episode II
(X) Star wars episode IV
(X) Stars episode V
(X) Star wars episode VI
(X) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
( ) Trainspotting
( ) People under the stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
(X) Sound of music
(X) Parent Trap
(X) The Burbs
( ) SLC Punk
(X) Meet Joe Black
( ) Wild girls
(X) A Clockwork Orange
(X) The Order
(X) Spiderman
(X) Spiderman 2
( ) Amelie
(X) Mean Girls
(X) Shrek
(X) Shrek 2
(X) The Incredibles
( ) Collateral
(X) The Fast & The Furious
(X) 2 Fast 2 Furious
( ) Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
(X) Closer
(X) the Sixth Sense
(X) Artificial intelligence
(X) Love actually
( ) Shutter
( ) Ella Enchanted
(X) Princess diaries 1
(X) Princess diaries 2
( ) Constantine
( ) Million Dollar Baby
( ) Pokemon
( ) Sahara
( ) Fever Pitch
(X) Superstar
(X) Monsters Inc.
(X) The Breakfast Club
(X) Dirty Dancing
(X) Pete's Dragon
(X) Elf
(X) Mrs.Doubtfire
( ) Blue Collar Comedy Tour (The Movie)
( ) Blue Collar Comedy Tour Rides Again
( ) Big Fish
( ) The Last Samurai
(X) Titanic
(X) You've Got Mail
(X) Sleepless in Seattle
(X) Big Daddy
(X) Happy Gilmore
(X) 8 Mile
(X) Save The Last Dance
(X) October Sky
(X) Drumline
(X) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(X) Fight Club
( ) Party Monster
(X) Almost Famous


Wow I have seen a lot of movies, oh yea the X's mean i have seen it

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May 12th, 2005
06:35 pm

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Alright, I know I havent written in awhile, but I have been super Busy. I have been working both jobs that I have, and now I start to babysit now tomorrow night.I am really lookin forward to that. ITs been nice to work at Miller Park again, however 12 games in a row, and working for 9 out of the 12 have been crazy. I love workin with Dell, Anne and Nikki.Not to mention working with Ryan and Jason. Pancake House is still there, and things are starting to turn upside down, but hey who knows it might get better it might get worse. I know that I am still looking for another job cuz I just cant wait tables for the rest of my life. I mean there isnt anything wrong with people who do that for there life, its just not me, and physically I cant with my knees. Oh well. Um other then that not too much is going on. Just a lot of drama yet with sean. Yea so sean has been callin me a lot more now, and stoppin in to see me at work now and asking to eat in my section. And well i dont know something weird is going on and everyone things that he knows he blew it now, and doest know how to fix this all. And that he misses me. But I still dont know.I still love him and I am sure will always love him, but I jsut want to be a friend right now for him. And I think thats what he needs right now more then anything. I just dont want to think about all this anymore rigth now, at least when I can talk to vicky maybe we can make some sense out of all this.
If any of you who read this, maybe you can lend me your thoughts. I know my life isnt all that exciting but still I could use some help with all this, I am the worst with relationship and exs

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Current Music: Entertainment tonight

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May 2nd, 2005
09:42 pm

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I wish I could end all of this right now. End all the drama and that I wouldnt have to deal with anything anymore.

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May 1st, 2005
10:19 pm

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survey
LAST PERSON WHO. . .

x. Slept in your bed: Me, but i wish someone else was with me lol
x. Saw you cry: my mom, when my sister was mad about the car
x. Made you cry: my sister
x. You shared a drink with: No one
x. You went to the movies with: Jennifer
x. You went to the mall with: myself
x. Yelled at you: My sister
x. Sent you an email: Vicky

HAVE YOU EVER. . .
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it?: To family and friends, and well that one speical guy
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: Nope, i love her so much
x. Been to California: Yea when I was little
x. Been to Hawaii: nope
x. Been to Mexico: yup…. not all that exciting
x. Been to China: nope
x. Been to Canada: yeah.. best trip of my life, Thanks to the Choir Girlz
x. Danced naked: Yep, its the best
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: No Iwish they would though
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: Hell ya, I mean we will wish that at least once a month lol, and we all know when that one time of the month is
x. Had an imaginary friend: Nope
x. Met some one famous (if so name em): Zac,Slater and Screech from Saved By the Bell,Fantaisa,Tim Mcgraw,Josh Kelly and there are more just cant remember them lol
EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you do drugs: Do pain killers count ?
x. Do you drink: Yes
x. Where do you want to get married: at st. marks or in disney
x. Who do you really hate: Sean's new girl
x. Been in Love: Yea, still am thought
x. Do you have a job: yes 3 to be exact
x. Do you like being around people: Yes, but i love my alone time too
x. Are you for world peace: Yes, I think
x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: Hello Ty Pennington,but who knows I could have a chance
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: Thats a dumb thing to ask
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: Yea, they have to have some of the same interests as me but also want me to try new things with them too. And they have to be taller then me
x. Are you lonely right now: What do you think, if you said yes then your right
x. Song that’s stuck in your head a lot: Are you happy now by michelle branch
x. Do you want to get married: yes
x. Do you want kids: yes and yes and yes and yes and yes
x. Is anyone in your family famous (if so who are they): nope, I dont think so
x. Do you have a crush on someone: yes Ryan at work, but he is 19
x. What book are you reading now: None, but would like to if I could find the time, but for now I will stick with my cosmos
x. Worst feeling in the world: Having someone break your heart
x. Future son's name: Um I dont know
x. Future daughter's name: Summer
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: Floppy have had him since I was 5
x. Favorite sport to watch: football,soccer and tennis
x. Siblings: jill
x. Location: the 'sha
x. Uni plans: uni.. what huh… plans… wait what?? huh….
x. Piercings: navel
x. Where were you born: milwaukee
x. What do your parents do for a living: dad works for the post office, and mom at the hostpital
x. Parents names: chris and terry

FAVORITE

x. Family member and why: My mom and sister
x. Celebrity: Ty Pennington,Katie Holms
x. Room in house: my room
x. Type(s) of music: everything and anything
x. Band(s): too many to list
x. Movies(s): Willy wonka,Sleepin Beauty,Spanglish,Boys and Girls Down to you,Any disney movie
x. Color: right now red and orange
x. Perfume or cologne: Happy
x. restaurant: Duh Orginial Pancake house lol
x. Month: October

IN THE LAST WEEK, HAVE YOU...
x. cried: yeah
x. Bought something: A Car
x. Gotten sick: nope
x. Sang: yeah in the car
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yes
x. Met someone new: yea one of seans and daves exgirlfriend
x. Hugged someone: Friends and mom and sister
x. Kissed someone: My mom
x. Had sex: Alright its been almost 2 months
Part 2: music

1. total volume of music files: about 3000
2. last cd bought: The cool ones at target like dance and hip hop
3. last record bought: none
4. song playing right now: none
5. five songs/albums that i listen to a lot or that mean a lot to me and why:
Kelly Clarkson, I love her, and love the new cd
Britney Spears, I love the greatest hits
Xtenna aka chrisina agulira, love her cds
Fantatis, love her since i saw her
Any of my country cds

Your Name: Kim
Your Nickname: Kimmy,Kimmers, GIbbler, Bubbles
The First Three Letters Of Your Screen Name: KIM
Your Pet Peeve: Untrustworthy

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April 21st, 2005
07:08 pm

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So I thought that I would update since its been awhile, its not like a lot of people read this anyways and are dying to know whats going on with me, but still I will just for the hell of it.
So yea I found out that Sean is moving in with a girl, I guess they are dating. From what I have heard from some of his friends and family they all dont like her, and dont like the whole situation. I dont blame them cuz I have been so pissed off about this. I mean almost 3 years together and less then a month after we break up he has a new girlfriend and is moving in with her. Give me a break. Its a total rebound relationship and what happens when they break up or what not, then he has to move back home. He is out 350 dollars a month then, and well has nothing to show for it,besides him living on his own for a while. I think he is just doing this cuz both of his brothers are now moving away from home and he hasnt yet. But he had it good at home, I mean he is working 3rd shift now, so he is never home anyways right now, he didnt have to pay rent and could save up to buy a house or something. But whatever. I am just going to try and move on. I blocked him last night from aol and yahoo, just cuz I just dont need to see his away message that he is moving or what he is doing, I just need time to heal and get over this. I know it will take time but right now I just need to focus on me.
He texted me today and wanted his fridge back and wanted to know if I wanted my bed and futon back but I told him I was gonna be out of town this weekend, cuz I just need to not deal with him.
I am going out to play bingo tonight with cilla and becky. Then tomorrow dress shoppin with my sister so lets hope that we find brides maid dresses. Then at night maybe going out with cilla again to the bars or something. Then saturday going to see Fantasia with Pam and I get to meet her too, I know Pam is a lot more excited then I am but thats alright. Then I am not sure about Saturday night maybe bowling or something or if Vicky or Em dont have plans or homework, Then Sunday its homework day and just chillin.
Yea I know my life is pretty boring. But hey its what keeps me going right now, I work and work and try to do school work and what not. I just cant wait for Summerfest and the rest of Summer to be here, Chillin with Em and Kate and Vicky and Kiri. Going out with Cilla and Becky. Then trying to go to Florida to see Heather, since its been like a year. There is just a lot to do and my sisters wedding to get ready for. And who knows I might find a new Boy or maybe Sean might come to his sense, but if he does then there is a gonna be a lot of new rules and shit.
Well i am gonna go find somethin to eat.

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Current Music: Friends

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April 10th, 2005
03:12 pm

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Yea so I thought i would expand on my entry last night, I was drinking and really dont know why I posted that. Oh well. I guess you do dumb things when your drunk lol. Yep thats me. Well its another beautiful day outside, and well I also had my knee give out on me, oh well. Its not like this is stopping me, i just had to ice it for a few hours and now I am gonna get right back up and pick up where I left off in my life. i just cant sit it out anymore. TOnight i have a dinner thing for the Pancake house. Some appericaiton dinner. That should or will be interesting let me say. Well talk to you all more later.

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April 9th, 2005
11:22 pm

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Yeap tonight I drank a bottle & 1/2 of wine. I walso watched the notebook. I miss SEan, and waht my life top be l;ike tat movie

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