Hey ya all I know i said i would update every day but its just hasnt been able to fit it in. I am still doing well with the whole diet thing. I am on about week 3 !! Still speical k and trimspa and subway 5 to 6 times a week with a cheat day in there too.I am not drinmkin as much and still not eatting after 8pm unless i have been drinkin I have had md's 2 times in the last few weeks and have felt like crap after it so i am done with that.
Other then that I am just not happy with my life and how things are going, there are days where i just want to stay in bed and take as many pain killers as i can to try and not worrie or think about things. I just dont know what to do any more, I have seen sean again with his wife to be and that kills me more everytime and i am just trying so hard to let it go i am really starting to think i need to see a shrink or something. Well we will have to see how things are gonna keep going i just want them to get better and i want me to get better also.